Totoro

 so i lowk forgot about this for a little bit, but heres a life update! so the nail that has been fucked up since i believe november has FINALLY fallen off. currently, im at camelback resort in the poconos, and i genuinely cant tell if i have a chance or not with that girl. shes so on and off, sometimes it seems like i do have a chance and sometimes it seems like she wants absolutely nothing to do with me. so im probably going to give up sometime soon. on top of that, in starting to like someone else (for like the second time, but we dated for a week and a half the summer to freshman year), ive known her since 6th grade and we only recently started talking again (not in a relationship way just talking again). this bitch i HATE with a burning passion was just brought off out of school suspension so i have to deal with this fish smelling no soul having loose cooch whore for the rest of the school year. this bitch is SO egotistical and self centered. shes the reason every bathroom has...

so i, stupidly, have my last ex unblocked on instagram still, i kept her unblocked after i broke up with her as a sign of respect and for anything important. ever since we broke up she has abused the fact i keep her unblocked. now, we dated for about 7 months, i wont get into the reasons i broke up with her because that feels like a kinda shitty thing to do, but i will say i almost tried committing before i ended it. BUT, after 3-4 months i finally got a fucking break. and then she reaches out for a conversation then gets pissed off when i didnt wanna have one. did i purposefully be a dick? yes, she made me suicidal again despite 2 mental hospitals, and ive made it abundantly clear that i dont wanna speak to her unless its an urgent matter. what constitutes an urgent matter? fuck if i know but it will be obvious once one DOES occur. i dont want to keep he runblocked, id be filled with an immense amount of joy if i could block her completely, but nooooooo. shes neighbors with my one goo...

im genuinely so annoyed, my one acquaintance (who we shall call b) is dating and talking to this ADULT MAN who is at least 21 bc she is buying her booze, and now im in the middle of it all? now keep in mind we are each about 16 and she is a total whore. she sells her body out for drugs and alcohol, and boasts about taking some freshmans virginity. but, she got her laptop and nic taken away, and then spammed my SCHOOL EMAIL to get me on a google meet so i could text her baby daddy for her? now keep in mind, this is a WHITE man, about as white as paper, blonde hair in dreads for some reason lookin like predator from alien vs predator. EXCEPT HE IS A PREDATORRRR. but i had to be their bridge of communication to get him to her house and just some weird and cryptic ass shit. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. i saw her in school today, and she was COVERED in hickeys. and i know i mentioned this but she will gladly sell her body for drugs, money, booze, whatever. she let some guy hit so she cou...

 theres this one SUPERRRR pretty girl im trying to tslk to and she is genuinely like, drop dead gorgeous. despute only knowing her for like 4(?) days at this point, i already remember her birthday, favorite anime, favorite dan da dan character, her favorite show, her birds name, and that she is going to nursing school right now either 10 mins from me or an hour away. i really dont wanna fuck this up or have a repeat of my last relationship, so im trying my hardest to get to know her as a person so there is something i can truly love without debate. i dont care how long it takes im gonna keep on trying until one of these happen; her and i start dating, she gets with someone else, pr i give up because i feel bad.